Romans 8:18
| For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us. This verse has become quite special to me, quite personal in the past few years. There's been a lot of suffering in my life. I'm sure the same can be said of most of our lives. Yet, the reality hit me today...when I compare the sufferings of this life, with the glory that is to be revealed to me when I finally meet my precious Savior face to face...when I fall at the feet of my Abba in utter awe...when I see the splendor of the Lord and His majesty right before my eyes...when I kiss the face of my Savior... EVERY SINGLE BIT OF SUFFERING that I've dealt with in my life will seem but pin pricks by comparison to the glory of God....the glory that is to be revealed to me. AWESOME, isn't it?! Just AWESOME when you soak in the truth of that! Shane and I met with the neurologist today, and he showed us the MRIs of my brain and spine. I have 4-5 lesions on my brain, which is indicative of MS. He also believes that the seizures that have been taking place in various parts of my body are symptomatic of epilepsy. Evidently, MS and epilepsy and migraines can all be kissin' cousins. Crazy, isn't it?! I will have the great joy of a spinal tap soon. Poor doctor...as he was desribing the procedure to me today, I just said, "Don't tell me about, don't tell me about it,...please...don't tell me about it! Seriously, I chose to give birth to my babies at home because I knew that if I were to go to a hospital, I might not be able to handle the pain, knowing that there was relief available, and the thought of having an epidural just FREAKED me out!" He said, "Oh..ok, then we'll give you Valium for the procedure." Good man! I told you this doctor was a good one! :) Here's the good news in all of this: 1. MS is not the death sentence that it once was. Thanks to drug therapies, it can be managed, and a normal life can be lived. 2. We've caught it early, which means treatment can begin soon, and thus keep the episodes at bay. 3. My dear friend Anna, who was diagnosed with it in December, is the one who told me that she wasn't buying the first Dr's opinion, and that is what propelled me to find a doctor that would listen to me. 4. God has allowed this in my life...I don't know why, but I know that He is sovereign, and that NOTHING happens in my life without His permission. 5. This world is not my home...this is all temporary compared to eternity. Thank you for caring for me, for loving me, and for your precious comments...I love reading each one. I hope that you'll understand if I can't address each email and each comment right now...we all feel like we're swimming in the deep end of the water these days, but please...keep them coming. They are such a blessing to me! I'll respond as I am able. I must go now and love on my sweetie...he's processing all of this news, and I need to be there for him. To God be the glory, great things He hath done! Just watch and see, sweet friends...He'll be glorified through this, because my life is not my own. It is no longer I who live, but Christ Who lives within me. :) XOXO, Jes Blue Letter Bible. "Romans 8 - New American Standard Bible." Blue Letter Bible. 1996-2009. 18 Jun 2009. < b="Rom&c=" t="NASB"> |
