Jes Pontificates about Nothing

I often wonder, as I write this blog, is it's purpose being fulfilled?

Several women whom I admire deeply, have encouraged me to keep blogging through everything. They tell me that it helps you to know where I am , and how I'm doing.

They tell me that there are lessons for all of us through this.

You know, what I'm learning, is that it feels like I'm alone through it all. I know in my head that I'm not.

Yet, that's how it feels.

I suppose it's because I've gone and decided once again where I think God needs me..instead of just listening to him and following His full direction.

I keep trying to accomplish things for Him, that maybe just aren't in His plans for me.

Ever been in that place?

Am I honoring God and obeying Him in the steps I'm taking, or am I just in the way...messing up a better plan that He has?

A dear friend, a rock of a friend, was reflecting with me tonight about the ladies leadership study that we just wrapped up...a powerful, strong, POW! kind of study.

She was so sweet, and said, "God DID THAT THROUGH YOU, JES!"

And all I could say was, "Wow. What a privilege!"

I mean think about that for a minute, the HOLY, HOLY, HOLY Awesome God of the Universe reaches down for even a moment and decides that one of us is going to be called to do anything for Him...for His glory....

It leaves me dumbfounded.

We have 23 women signed up to come to "Sweeter Than Chocolate" starting OCT. 1....we're going to eat up that book, Psalm 119....pray that the women of our church just fall in love with learning to study the word of God for themselves....that it will make them want to go deeper and deeper.

Status update:

I went to Church today, and saw many of the dear people I love there. A friend of mine joined me, and it was so sweet to hug her neck and pray for her....and cry with her. I love her so.

Then we gorged ourselves at The Good Egg, and I came home and took about a 4 hour nap...now I go back to rest...but not before a shot. Ugh.

We're in survival mode, if you want to know the truth...it will get better...but that's where we are right now.

I need more people to pray for...I take a shot every day, you know!

C'mon...comment anonymously if you need to....just keep those names for salvation coming to me.

Love you all..
Jes