I Asked to be Slayed by God

That's gotta sound a little odd, I'm guessing.

But it's true, I did. Just tonight.

I was driving home from a MEGA Costco trip that just about set me over the edge...but I digress.

I plugged up my iPhone to my car cassette deck (yeah...nothing beats a 1997 Chevrolet Van!) and the first song that came on was a David Crowder song. The lyrics talk about how we are HIS forever, and ever, and ever, and ever...

As I was singing along at the top of my lungs, really more like rocking out in my uber-cool 1997 mini van, I was stuck with how very true the words of that song are for me.

I AM HIS FOREVER, and EVER, and EVER and EVER!

Nothing can separate me from the love of Christ. God has etched me on te palms of His hands.

I am His, and He is mine.

Wow...what humbling, AWESOME, PRAISE HIM AT THE TOP OF MY LUNGS truth that is!

But then it struck me...so many people that I love dearly, can't sing that song.

So many of them are on their way to eternal damnation once this life is over.

There is one family in particular whom I love with every fiber of my being, and I know without a doubt that they are watching everything I do....the way I'm handling MS; the decisions that we make for our family; the jokes that I choose to laugh at, and the times that I remain silent.

They are lost. At least some of them are. I think some of them are prodigals, and I have peace with that because Romans tells me that it's not up to the one who wills, nor the one who RUNS....BUT GOD. (The two sweetest words in the Word!)

Tonight I cried out to God, BEGGING Him for their salvation, and for the return of the prodigals.

I realized in that moment exactly what my life is worth compared to theirs...theirs which are not on the way to eternity when they die. In comparison to living in eternity without them, I count my life of no earthly value.

And I told the LORD..."WHATEVER You need to do to me Lord, if it will mean salvation for them as they watch me walk through it, PLEASE don't withhold it from me!"

I told Him that I trusted that if He needed to put yet one more great trial in my life for them to observe me walk through, I knew He would give me the strength to continue to praise His name.

I made myself a willing sacrifice with my words, because the eternal destiny of this family MATTERS THAT MUCH to me!

In praying, I also BEGGED the LORD to pursue them madly.

Is there someone in your life whose salvation means enough to you that you'll willingly offer yourself to God as a sacrifice to His glory?

Please don't tell me that God wants us all well, and that lack of wellness denotes a lack of faith.

That simply does NOT prove out Scripturally.

Why didn't God take away Timothy's frequent stomach problems? Did Timothy have a lack of faith?

Um, NO!

So I wonder...is there someone in YOUR life for whom you'd willingly ask God to slay you, if by Him doing so and you walking through the challenge praising His name, they would surrender their life to Him?

Here's a YouTube video of the song.

Love you tonight,
Jes