Maybe it's my high-feeler personality, per the Myers Briggs testing. Perhaps it's my propensity toward tears when my heart is touched, convicted, or pierced.
Regardless the reasons, there are only a few of my friends who will really speak into my life those things which they fear I might take the wrong way.
Yet, I deeply cherish those handful of friends! I am so very thankful that their love for me, and their desire for me to be all that God has designed me to be, far outweigh their concern for themselves.
Leaves me asking myself, how did a chickie-mom like me land friends like these?
A few of those friends, both of whom are close to 20 years wiser that me, have recently
One shared with me how much she loved pulling up my blog and going to the search section when she wanted to know what I had seen from Scripture regarding a certain passage.
Wow! What a humbling complement...but not really such a complement to me after all, if what I'm doing is operating from a gifting of God through His Holy Spirit when I share what I've learned from His Word.
Humbling yes. But the complement would go to God, not to me.
Enter friend #2, affectionately known as Nanners, Nan, Janan, Spiritual Momma...
She send me a note some months ago, along with a CD by Beth Moore, all about how discouragement comes for the teacher, and Nanner was concerned that I was discouraged....and she wanted to encourage me to press on.
To keep fighting the good fight.
Not to give up.
Friend #1, Leta-Bandita, went so far as to remind me what the title of my blog is.
I do love that lady! I love kissing her sweet soft cheeks each time I see her, and marveling over the fact that she's achieved that buttery soft skin simply by using Ponds for years.
But I digress. :)
So, my friends, I'm writing to ask you if you'd please pray for me. Pray that I'll have courage.
I study my Bible almost every day, yet I don't write about what I'm studying as much anymore, because somewhere along the line, I started reading items by some of the great theologians, and realized that I'm not one.
No where close.
I just love Jesus. JESUS. JESUS CHRIST, for whom I am a willing slave for the rest of my life.
Yet, I'm also fearful now...in a way that I wasn't when first I started this blog. I'm terribly afraid of steering someone wrong.
I realize now that I may see something in my study of a given book of the Bible today, and glean something completely different from that same book in a year from today.
It's not my heart to create doctrine here...nor to reiterate the doctrines of man.
I simply want to share with you what God has shown me through His Word. I want to take you on a marvelous adventure of studying God's Word, and of discovering what it means to be His beloved.
Think about that....the God of the universe calls us His beloved!
Baffling. Beyond my comprehension.
But believable, wholly and only because God tells us so.
And God cannot lie.
He tells us that too, in His Word.
I'm excited to get back on track...excited but scared. I don't have much emotional space in my life for dealing with critics, nor do I desire to engage in deep debate with those who may leave comments.
I just want to love Jesus, study God's Word, be led in a life of obedience to Him by His indwelling Holy Spirit, and love others as Christ loves me.
I'm praying about how to go about what God has laid on my heart, and then confirmed through my friends. Won't you pray with me?
I will follow His lead, no doubt.
Not a yet, or a but....simply this....I would like to hear from you in comment form....
What is it that has kept you coming back to read my blog?
If there's something that you've been missing, what is it?
Any suggestions on how to make it better?
I love you all!
I turned 40 yesterday. My sweet friend called me, D sent me a lovely card, Janet brought me 2 books I will cherish forever, but one has already pierced my heart and has given me words from Jesus that I know I am to share with my new Jehovah's Witness friends.
You just have to get a copy of Transforming Grace by Leslie Martin!
Other highlights to yesterday:
- My precious husband bought me the most beautiful black pearls I've ever seen. They're amazing and I love them!
- I got tulips. My favorite!
- Peggy Sue bought me a birthday cake, a colossal cupcake. Little Miss B ate all the icing off of it. Boo!
- Kim is planning a surprise something or other for me next weekend. Yay!
- Candee Sue sent me the most beautiful antique teapot to go with the beautiful Spode teacup and saucer that she gave me months ago.
- Several friends wished my Happy Birthday on Facebook.
- My brother called me...he's so good about that, every single year!
- I received several sweet eCards.
- Caedmon threw up all day, and ran 103 degree temp.
Life is sweet.
I love ya'll. Please send me comments...I really want to read them!
No proofreading tonight, so forgive me if my spelling or grammar stink. :)
Read my heart instead.
40 year old hugs,